Thursday, April 28, 2005


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PS: Never take your own picture.

PSS: I don't really think I'm that red all the time.


Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Man, Aren't Drunken Posts Fun?

So yeah...quite drunk Saturday night. Felt kind of like an 18 year old again. I really miss going out to a bar with a group of people and just talking and laughing. It's so much fun.

After I write some stuff I kind of feel like I come across as bi-polar or something. I will admit to going through a lot at the moment, but like, I'm SOOO not about to jump off a ledge.

Actually an interesting thing has happened. Since Saturday and seeing said girl(just as an aside, I should NEVER be allowed near a computer or a phone after I've been drinking...Sorry for the late night call Jules), I've come to the realization that I've been threw this before and I might be threw it again, but at the end of the day, no matter what, I'll survive. It's kind of weird being depressed and relieved at the same time.

So the new Eels' CD came out today...and I didn't buy it yet. I know I should be shot and p!ssed on. I downloaded it a few weeks ago(Uh oh, look out! Here comes the RIAA to hunt me down) and I think it's by far their best stuff. I will be buying it, I just haven't gotten off my ass yet.

If you haven't seen Sin City yet, get out and see gone yet? It's simply amazing. It's visually amazing and the story is incredible.

Since I got home from work today I've gotten 4 calls from various cell phone providers asking me to switch. One actually hit on me(yeah, that's right. All the ladies want me because of my voice. Ahh yeah!).

Speaking of my voice(great segue), I'm thinking of adding a little 30 second voice/podcast thingie on here. Anyone interested or am I just being too geeky? Let me know.

Well that's about enough from me...



Sunday, April 24, 2005

The Ghosts That Haunt Me...

First and foremost, I'm drunk right now.

I was at my favorite bar tonight with my best friends. I was expecting a drunken night of laughing and fun. Little did I know that a ghost from my past would turn up.

A girl I cared for a long long time ago appeared at my bar. It was someone, at the time, that I truly expected to marry some day. She had no interest in me that way so we kind of led a false friendship for many years. It was always really messed up and I never knew what to expect or how to feel about the whole situation. It came down one day to me telling her that I wanted something from her and her not willing to accept that. So I told her that I would call her when I needed her and she wasn't to call me anymore. It was far less then our relationship deserved, but enough was enough and I couldn't handle it anymore.

Seeing her brought back all those memories and feelings. As much as I try to kid myself into thinking that I'm some kind of super person the fact is that I wasn't mature enough to handle that she didn't want me the way I wanted her still bothers me. Sometime life is truly messed up and I don't know what to do with myself.

On a good note, I called my long time chat friend Jules for the first time and we had a good long conversation. It's always weird talking to someone from the net for the first time. Sometimes it goes well and sometimes you don't know what to do. Jules and I seemed to have a good conversation. It was nice and I hope it solidified our friendship, but as my favorite saying goes, time will tell.

I don't have much else to say. I hope everyone that reads this is doing well.



Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Ahh Yeah...

I took the day off today. Man, did I need it. I did S.F.A. It was so nice. I got to sleep until almost noon.

Yes, you read that right.

I SLEPT!!! Until almost noon even. I turned off all the phones in the house and left my cell in the basement(so F.U. whoever called it at 8:17 this morning) and got to have a nice peaceful, uninterrupted sleep. It was so nice. It was almost just what the doctor ordered.

It was also incredibly beautiful out. It was supposed to rain all afternoon, but didn't, so I got to sit in the backyard and smoke. It was wonderful. I'm going to work as much as I can and maybe take another week off during summer vacation. Not work is the bestest ever.

Now before you think I've given up being "self deprecating", I haven't. I just feel good today. It's been a long while since I've felt this good and it's nice.

I hope everyone has a day like this real soon.



PS: I spent some of the day listening to Lewis Black. He is the funniest mother f#cker alive.

Sunday, April 17, 2005

I Taste Like Dog Food...

So my mom gives me these chocolate things on Friday night.

One is a Winnie the Pooh Easter Egg and the other is a "Puppy Love" from Neilson. I'm not big on chocolate, I'll eat it but it's not my most favorite thing in the world, but for some reason Friday night I was right into it. I started by eating the top of the Egg then eating the other candy inside.

Good Stuff, but it was a little too thick and I like thin chocolate and I knew that the "Puppy Love" was one of those 99cent jobbies that usually melt when you touch them. So I grabbed the dog by the body and proceeded to bite it's head off(yeah I'm metal like that, rock on).

I ate a good majority of my Puppy Love, and it was damn tasty, when I started to look at the box. I don't think this was people chocolate. I think I just ate dog chocolate. Everything on the wrapper is dog geared. There's little puppy name tags on the back with a cut out collar. There's Neilson "Puppy Identification Card". There's little happy puppy cartoon images bounding around smiling. I feel truly disturbed. I've brushed my teeth about 70 times in the last 2 days and still have the feeling like I taste like dog food. Ugh.

I went out with some friends last night. We were all supposed to meet at one bar at 9:15ish. We got to that bar and they were showing the UFC PPV. While I love the UFC, but it has a tendency to invite...umm...surly people. So the bar was full of roughians and hoodlums(I'm also 1900's like that, rock on) and considering a large portion of our party were members of the female persuasion we decided it was for the best to move to another location.

Only one problem. Not everyone had arrived. So we called those who could be contacted and notified them of our change of venue. We managed to get a hold of just about everyone. My good friend Hot Rod lives right around the corner from the establishment we were at and regularly walks there. So we decided to wait for him and give him a ride to the other place.

So we wait.

And wait.

and some more.

After about a half hour we called his wife(Julie) to ask if he had walked. She wasn't sure. So I left the message with her that if Rod showed up back home to meet us at the other bar.

So we got to the other bar and low and behold Hot Rod's there. "What are you doing here?", I asked. "What are you doing here?!?", he responded. Apparently he had made other arrangements with other friends to meet with them for a beer first. So long story short, we sat and waited at the other bar for no reason. He was there all along. Dammit.

I don't really have too much else to say about last night other then the fact that our waitress was really quite cute. That all in itself made the evening a pleasant one. Good times.



Thursday, April 14, 2005

Bored Sh!t...

I thought it was kind of funny that one of my google ads(you know those things over there--->, the things that I'm not allowed to tell you to click often. Yeah those there --->) was for bored sh!t. What exactly is bored sh!t? Seeing as how I have nothing better to do, I decided to click the link to find out...and it lead no where. Don't know how that works, but yeah, an ad to nothing. Odd.

So only 34 days until Sith. I'm wearing my Revenge of the Sith t-shirt today. One of the older guys at work came up to me and glanced down at my tee and then looked back up at me and smirked. "What?," I asked. "Even I know how to spell sh!t." Hardee Har Har. Get!t. Spelled somewhere similarly. Oh the humor. I'm busting a gut thinking about it now. Oh ho ho ho. Yeah. I need a new job.

I was eating a bowl of Crispix in front of my computer earlier. Not a good idea. Phone rang so I got up to get it. Guess where the cereal ended up? Yeah, all over my keyboard. Here is some random quotes from an earlier conversation I was having as my old keyboard started dying.

BgScaryGy: yeh it wS ON THT CD i MDE FOR YOU THT DIDN'T Work.
BgScaryGy: lots nd lots of spiders
BgScaryGy: I wnt pet spider

Good times let me tell you. Luckily I have a wireless keyboard a friend gave me awhile ago, or I'd be up shit's creek.

This is turning out to be one of those blog entry's I hate. I don't really have anything to write about so I write about boring everyday stuff. *Sigh*

Well I'll leave it there.



Tuesday, April 12, 2005

I Need a Vacation...

I've been noticing the past few days that I really need a vacation. One where nothing horrible happens and I can just chill. Smoke some Du Maurier, drink some Buds and relax.

I can picture ass that I can't have it just yet.

I can't wait for July. Vacation month. Going to be soooo nice.

I've decided the best thing I can to for myself in order to make the time until vacation go quicker is to set things up that I'm looking forward to. Kind of like a grand scale advent calender. Some of the gifts will be better then others, but all of them are things I'll be looking forward to.

For example: There's a little movie coming out 36 days from now(29 for some people, I'm probably not going to be that lucky). I don't know if you've heard of it. Some guy goes nuts, fights his best friend, wipes out the rest of them, falls into a pit of lava, decides big black helmets and breathing tubes are the new look. Something about Revenge...oh it will come to me...

Thinking about it now, there's a lot of movies I want to see this summer. Fantastic Four, Batman Begins, War of The Worlds, Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy and that other one. Good blockbuster filled summer for comic book geek people this year. All of those movies will make nice little rewards to make it to vacation.

Movies aren't the only things though. Cd's, books, video games(I wish), comic books. Lots of little things. But looking forward to them makes the time go by quicker.

Or so I hope.

So yeah, that's how I'm going to try and remain sane for the next little while. I'm thinking it might work. As my new life motto says, "Time will tell."



PS: I just found this site and have been screwing around with it for the last little bit. Stupid pointless fun. Check out some of my creations...

Sunday, April 10, 2005

Random Thoughts: The Sequel...

Am I as annoying as I think I am?

When does football season start? Sundays are boring with no games.

Smoking is so cool.

Everyone that has had a broken heart needs to listen to "I'm going to stop pretending that I didn't break your heart" by my favorite band, Eels.

I'm bored and this isn't as fluid as it was last time.

How do you stop being angry about things you can't control?

Why is Telnet dying such a slow death?

I really like my pen from GeekFURY, everyone should check out thier stuff.

What should I have for dinner?

I think thats all I will say.



Friday, April 08, 2005

E is SOOO Cool...

I can't wait for the new Eels Album. The anticipation is killing. This is E. He is too cool. Listen to Eels and understand a little about me.



PS: Click the picture to go to the Eels website.

Thursday, April 07, 2005

Oh What a Beautiful Morning...

You know those lovely days? The ones where you wake up feeling totally refreshed with the sun shining in threw your bedroom window, the birds are singing and all feels right in the world? That's exactly how my day started. I thought I finally got some decent sleep. I thought it was going to be awesome and the world was smiling in my direction...Then I looked at the clock...5:12am. One hour and one minute before my alarm goes off. I didn't think too much about it, but I must admit once I saw the time I felt like my exhaustion was slowly creeping back.

Then it occurred to's 5:12am, why is the sun out so early? I peaked out the window and realized it wasn't the sun. It was my obnoxious neighbor's obnoxious spotlamp shining directly into my bedroom window. I gritted my teeth, and felt another round of exhaustion belt my brain.

I went to go pee and stubbed my toe on the way. I now hate 5:12am and exhaustion had taken full effect. I turned on the shower and burned the royal crap out of my feet and legs, but it at least woke me up a little bit. Once I got out of the shower I threw on my shorts, tee shirt and hoodie for the day ahead. It started rough, but I was sure today was going to be a good day, no matter how miserable it had started. A motivational speaker once told me you have to make your own weather, and today mine was going to be great.

I went downstairs to do my morning ritual of checking email, checking the talkers and to read whatever wrestling news had happened in the 4 or 5 hours since I last checked. Today I had 5 new mails. Yay...oh wait...all f#cking spam. I'm taking a hot butter knife to 5:12am's throat.

I leave for work and it's a little brisk out, but nothing too bad. I'm sure my clothes for the day were an excellent choice. As I'm walking through the yard to get to the starts to piss rain. 5:12am is a mother f#cker.

At about 9am, the rain cleared up for a minute and along comes a breeze. A nice ARCTIC wind. The dome is pretty much a wind tunnel on still days, when there's any kind draft it's like working in a f#cking tornado. So now it's cold and windy and I'm in shorts. I don't think it got above 50 all day today. Friggin' eh 5:12am.

Then there was the piece de la resistance.

With about 25 minutes left in the day, my partner and I were talking, waiting for the next van to pull up. For some reason I looked up at Craig(the guy that brings the units into the dome) as he was pulling the next van in. He was obviously panicked. I took about as huge a step back as I could and watched as Craig slammed into the back of the previous van. No one was hurt, but 2 vans are very destroyed. If I hadn't leaped back(and from what I was told it was quite a leap for a huge fat guy), I probably would have lost at least one of my legs.

5:12am can suck a d!ck, but I've never been happier and more relieved in my life.



Wednesday, April 06, 2005

Ok So Maybe I'll Hold Off On That Big Post...

Well since I started that big article I talked about in my last post, information has changed. The Bush Government is really hurting the U.S.' relationship with Canada. That's all I'll say about it for now.

What's the old saying? When it rains, it pours. I'm mentally and physically exhausted. These past few weeks have really worn on me. There's a lot of things going on in my life right now and...dude...I'm just burnt. I haven't really slept since I got back from my trip. If you've seen Fight Club, Ed Norton's description of insomnia is right on. "When you have insomnia, you're never really awake and you're never really asleep." Today was the first time that I wasn't actually sure if I was dreaming or if I was asleep. It was truly f#cked. That shadowy fog world you dream in should never enter real life...ever.



PS: Big thanks to my fellow bloggers, polarcheese and Miss Tasha for being some of the big hitters and leaving comments. There's no award(sorry Miss Tasha, no toasters for you), but it's nice to know someone's reading. Click their names to check out their excellent Blogs.

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

One More Click...

And I hit 700 clicks. That's pretty rad. Thanks to everyone that reads this. If you're number 700, post a comment and tell me who it is.



PS: I've got a huge post coming. I worked on it a lot today and I think it's about halfway done. I think when all is said and done, I'm going to be pretty proud of how it all turned out. When I do publish it, please please please give me some feedback on it. It would be really sweet if it could start a disscussion about it's topic. Maybe even get people to log on to the talker and have a chat about it.

PSS: Just had a problem loading this...dammit. So I was the 700th click...f#ck beans. Sooo how about 702 leave a post in the comments and let me know who you are.

Monday, April 04, 2005


I love this song and you should love it too. Get it.

Not Ready Yet
by: Eels

There's a world outside
And I know 'cause I've heard talk
In my sweetest dream
I would go out for a walk

But I don't think I'm ready yet
I'm not feeling up to it now
Just not that steady yet
And I don't need you telling me how

There's some happiness
And my stone face cracks again
Maybe sometime sooner or later

But I don't think I'm ready yet



Sunday, April 03, 2005

Jules, You Can Skip This one too...

Today is Wrestlemania Sunday. For wrestling fans today is the Superbowl, World Series and the Grammy's all rolled into one. The past years storylines all come to a head and next years storylines start. We'll finally get to see new Champions. New Faces and Stars will emerge. Wrestlemania is the show that presents wrestling in its best light.

Last night was the WWE Hall of Fame induction ceremony. This year a number of wrestling's biggest "Super Stars" of the 80's and 90's were inducted. "CowBoy" Bob Orton, "Mr. Wonderful" Paul Orndorf, The Iron Sheik, Nikoli Volkoff, "Rowdy" Roddy Piper and the Immortal Hulk Hogan were all bestowed one of wrestling’s highest honours. Spike TV showed "Hot Rod's" and The Hulkster's inductions. Roddy was present by "The Nature Boy" Ric Flair, and Hogan was inducted by Sylvester Stallone.

Piper's speech was just as everyone expected it to be. Funny, controversial and emotional all at the same time. Piper is a true classic. He said it best. "I was a scrawny kid that wore a kilt, played the bag pipes, and lived on an Indian reserve in the middle of Canada. What else could I be but a Wrestler?" You could truly feel that he was appreciative of the honour he received.

Then there was Hogan. Hulkster is probably the most loved star in this history of the Business. Anytime Hogan walks into an arena you can't hear yourself think because the crowd is so insane for him. One of his famous lines is "Hulkamania is running wild" and truer words have never been spoken. Hogan came out to a standing ovation, the biggest honour anyone in wrestling can receive. The crowd gave him several standing ovations for a little over 20 minutes. He couldn't speak because every time he went to the crowd would start up again. It was a truly cool moment and I believe he deserved every moment of it. Hogan set the stage and all wrestlers since have followed...and here's the but. Hulk has always thought of himself as greater then the business. While this is probably true, it's pretty arrogant to behave that way. When he finally got around to his speech, He didn't thank the fans. He thanked Sly Stallone for giving him the opportunity to star in Rocky 3. Then, as the crowd was chanting "one more match", he cut a promo saying never say never. Bogus. It really diminished Hogan in my eyes. There was so much he could have and should have said, and by not saying it, it just showed how he really feels.

Anyway, Mania is tonight. I can't wait for it. Even if you aren't a wrestling fan, Mania is something you need to see once in your life. This year's isn't as stellar as years past, but I have no doubts it won't fail to deliver.



Friday, April 01, 2005

They Killed My Friend...

How's that for a dramatic title?

Ok so no one actually killed a real friend of mine, but someone did kill someone I've known for most of my life and it's kind of hard to come to grips with.

This past week DC comics released a comic called COUNTDOWN TO INFINITE CRISIS. The story, at it's basic root, was to set up a major storyline that will run throughout DC for the next year or so.

The star of the book is a character named Ted Kord, the second Blue Beetle. Beetle has a long and unique history that make him a special character in comic book history. He was originally owned by Charlton Comics, a comic company that can pretty much be described as the number three publisher throughout the 60's and 70's. DC bought out all the original characters Charlton owned in the early 80's and couldn't do much with them because continuity nuts(like myself) would have gone ape sh!t. So DC decided it was time to clean up their own continuity and bring in Charton's at the same time. The result? A little thing called Crisis on Infinite Earths. Crisis, for those that don't know, changed everything. It firmly established that comics weren't just for kids anymore and that comic stories could be told in an epic scale.

Blue Beetle was a major part of Crisis. He was also involved in the rebooting of the Justice League. He was one of the key characters that showed that comics could be slap stick funny, but relevant and topical at the same time. The maturing of the comic book art took place and Beetle was a key character in all of it.

Well as you can probably guess, Blue Beetle died at the end of Countdown.

I know what you are thinking. How can a fictional character be my friend? Well imagine that a TV character you have been following for about 20 years suddenly took a bullet in the head. Or a news anchor that you have watched all your life died a horrible death, in front of you. That's about as close as I can describe how it feels. I'm heart broken. I loved Beetle. So yeah...I'm in mourning.

I might go into further detail about how comic characters become people you know at a later date, but that's it for now.



PS: I got my sticker and pen from today. I'm impressed. The dude that let me know that I was eligible was a really cool guy. I wish them all the best. I'm pretty happy with what they sent me. Check them out.(click the link)

R.I.P. 1966 - 2005