First things first, Happy Halloween!
Ok, now that that's over with...
Once upon a time, like circa 1995 or so, that title of today's entry was my slogan in life. Everything was wacky...and that fits perfectly into how my day was yesterday.
As a lot of readers know(I'm allowed to say that now, I'm averaging about 6 repeat user hits a day now...woohoo), yesterday was the Bears/Lions game in Detroit...and I had to be there or life isn't right.
I got up early to get ready and I think you could feel the energy oozing off me. There's something about seeing my Bears playing Detroit that just makes my hair stand on end. I feel this zest and craziness that's can't be described.
My friends Marc, Mark and Mark's brother Jeff came to pick me up at around 9:30. Marc came into the house to get me and I did my ritual of picking him up...but this time I was either too excited or he's lost weight because when I went to pick him up I kind of threw him up in the air. I was able to safely catch him, but I couldn't do it without falling down myself...oops...so yeah...way to start the day looking like a dumb ass...but what did I care? I was seeing the Bears.
We got to the Detroit about 20 or so minutes later(with no hassles at the border, which was a big plus!). When we tailgate we go to this old Vietnam Vets hospital, it's free to park, but they do ask for a donation. We each chipped in $5US(which is a deal) and started with the festivities. Mark bought a ton of food(which isn't surprising, the dude can out eat me any day of the week, which is quite the feat). We had Hamburgers, Sausages and a little beverage called beer. Ahhhh...Beer.
I think we were there for about an hour and a half(beer = umm really an hours gone by?) and then headed out to Ford Field.
I got bugged quite a bit by the Lions fans on the way. They are all quite jealous, I'm sure. Many years of sub-pardom(and by many I mean, all) will do that to a fan base.
Marc and I had our(read:Rod's) usual tickets in the Family Fun Zone, but they didn't feel like the usual seats. A quarter into the game, we realized why....they weren't the usual seats...we had been sitting in someone else's seats. We had been sitting in the wrong seats, completely unaware. So after a few minutes of searching, we found our proper seats and I immersed myself in the game.
To be honest much of it is a blur now. I know that we(Da Bears) were up, then we were down then we were tied, but I don't remember much else. Then it was overtime.
Now last year, we went into overtime against Detroit on Boxing day. The Bears scored a touch down, but that was called back and the Lions won that game. It ruined my holiday season last year. So, as you can probably guess I was having some bad flash backs.
BUT...
We won this one. YES!
BEARS!
So after the game, it wasn't the Lions' fans doing the razzing.:-D
We got back at about 5 and I lost my voice shortly there after. Marc has since complained that I gave him a headache with all my shouting. Oh well...just wait and see how I'm going to be in a few weeks in the Windy City, good buddy. BWahahahahah!
BEARS!
There's some pictures up on my Moblog if you want to take a look.
So after basking in the glory that is being a Bears fan(well this week, anyway) I jumped on the computer and was quite surprised with a message I had received.
One of my good friends from college had tracked me down. I emailed her back and we got to discussing some of the old days. I hadn't talked to her for about 10 years. It was quite the trip. She dated one of my best friends(my boss now, but still one of my best friends) and some crazy stuff happened between them. Since I was close with them both, it was really hard on me. She did some really stupid things and I allowed our friendship to fall away because of how she treated my friend.
Anyway, much to my surprise, she had been trying to track me down for a while. It was really nice catching up with her and see what she's been up to since. Much to my surprise she had a plethora of old pictures of the old group...and I was in a bunch of them. I didn't like having my picture taken back then(or now really), so I didn't even know a lot of them existed. I might put some up on my Moblog, but below is a an example.
Monday, October 31, 2005
Friday, October 28, 2005
Last Week's Comic Of The Week: Justice #2
So I'm a little late on this.
This one has a really cool story and probably the best art on any book currently out there, but then again...It's by Alex Ross.
Short and sweet: This is a non-continuity book about the Justice League. It's a great starting book for people curious about comics, but not wanting to be bogged down by characters they don't know and story they aren't sure of.
Comic Of The Week:
Justice #2
Written by Jim Krueger & Alex Ross; Art by Doug Braithwaite & Ross; Cover by Ross
The unbelievable bimonthly 12-part maxiseries created by Alex Ross (KINGDOM COME), Jim Krueger (Earth X) and Doug Braithwaite (Paradise X) continues! The Riddler leads Batman into a mystery within a mystery through his compulsion to speak the truth through riddles. Does he hold the key to the reason the villains are helping mankind? Plus, Aquaman falls victim to one of the DCU's most nefarious criminals!
Taken from:
http://www.dccomics.com/comics/?cm=4317
To find your local comic book shop, try The Comic Shop Locator @ http://csls.diamondcomics.com/ or call 1-888-COMIC BOOK
'slater,
Luthor...werd
PS: Busy week. More Bloggy fun coming, check out my moblog on Sunday for some images of the Bears/Lions game, as well as some pictures of a Doyon Family get together.
This one has a really cool story and probably the best art on any book currently out there, but then again...It's by Alex Ross.
Short and sweet: This is a non-continuity book about the Justice League. It's a great starting book for people curious about comics, but not wanting to be bogged down by characters they don't know and story they aren't sure of.
Comic Of The Week:
Justice #2
Written by Jim Krueger & Alex Ross; Art by Doug Braithwaite & Ross; Cover by Ross
The unbelievable bimonthly 12-part maxiseries created by Alex Ross (KINGDOM COME), Jim Krueger (Earth X) and Doug Braithwaite (Paradise X) continues! The Riddler leads Batman into a mystery within a mystery through his compulsion to speak the truth through riddles. Does he hold the key to the reason the villains are helping mankind? Plus, Aquaman falls victim to one of the DCU's most nefarious criminals!
Taken from:
http://www.dccomics.com/comics/?cm=4317
To find your local comic book shop, try The Comic Shop Locator @ http://csls.diamondcomics.com/ or call 1-888-COMIC BOOK
'slater,
Luthor...werd
PS: Busy week. More Bloggy fun coming, check out my moblog on Sunday for some images of the Bears/Lions game, as well as some pictures of a Doyon Family get together.
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
OK, So I lied...
Yeah, I'll get around to the comic of the week sometime within the next couple of days.
I have a good excuse though.
I went to see a concert.
Which concert you ask?
Oh...a little band called...U2!
My new friend Toni had an extra ticket and asked me last week if I would be interested in going. I said no, I couldn't afford it. Then it was offered for free...and yeah, I jumped at it.
So that's why there's no Comic of the Week entry yet.
Forgive me?
Thought so.
'slater,
Luthor...werd
PS: I'll have more about the U2 show later. I have to work tomorrow and it's currently 1:09AM, so the bloggin' will have to wait.
I have a good excuse though.
I went to see a concert.
Which concert you ask?
Oh...a little band called...U2!
My new friend Toni had an extra ticket and asked me last week if I would be interested in going. I said no, I couldn't afford it. Then it was offered for free...and yeah, I jumped at it.
So that's why there's no Comic of the Week entry yet.
Forgive me?
Thought so.
'slater,
Luthor...werd
PS: I'll have more about the U2 show later. I have to work tomorrow and it's currently 1:09AM, so the bloggin' will have to wait.
Sunday, October 23, 2005
Why Do I Do This?
So here I am, sitting at work at 3:56am wondering why I volunteer to work the midnight shift. I feel sh!tty, I probably look worse. I don't really get anything out of it, other then catching up with folks(My new favorite word, btw) I don't get to see too often.
I've had three coffees, 2 cookies and 2 plates of Chicken chop suey since I woke up. My stomach feels like it's got some kind of strange restless animal rummaging through it.
Ahh...bitchy posts.
So yeah, not much to say, just saying it.
'slater,
Luthor...werd
PS: New Comic of the Week Monday afternoon sometime, tell your friends.
PSS: Hey Jules, look I still did it wrong. HAHAHAHAH!
PSSS: Goiter!(no one will get that, and I like it that way)
I've had three coffees, 2 cookies and 2 plates of Chicken chop suey since I woke up. My stomach feels like it's got some kind of strange restless animal rummaging through it.
Ahh...bitchy posts.
So yeah, not much to say, just saying it.
'slater,
Luthor...werd
PS: New Comic of the Week Monday afternoon sometime, tell your friends.
PSS: Hey Jules, look I still did it wrong. HAHAHAHAH!
PSSS: Goiter!(no one will get that, and I like it that way)
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
What Did I Do?
So I went to check on my site traffic thing and something happened over the weekend...it exploded. I went from getting like 12 hits a day(yeah, that's a high traffic day) to like 135...ONE HUNDRED AND THIRTY FIVE...in one day. What the hell happened?
I know I put a link in my moblog, but manoman, that's a lot of people.
So was it just to see if I was still psycho? Or did it have to do with the Comic of the Week thing? Or was it just some random act?
If anyone knows, please let me know.
I'm hoping it has something to do with the Comic of the Week thing, I really enjoy doing that, might even make that a new Blog.
I've got some big news that I'm kind of sitting on. I'll write about it sooner or later. Kind of excited.
'slater,
Luthor...werd
PS: More soon. Promise.
PSS: Check out Ye Olde Moblog over the next few days. I'm either getting a digital camera tomorrow or Friday, so expect a lot of stupid photos...and just as an aside...that's not what I'm excited about.
PSSS: Whoever is responsible for allowing garbage like "The Biggest Loser" to air needs to be shot and pissed on.
I know I put a link in my moblog, but manoman, that's a lot of people.
So was it just to see if I was still psycho? Or did it have to do with the Comic of the Week thing? Or was it just some random act?
If anyone knows, please let me know.
I'm hoping it has something to do with the Comic of the Week thing, I really enjoy doing that, might even make that a new Blog.
I've got some big news that I'm kind of sitting on. I'll write about it sooner or later. Kind of excited.
'slater,
Luthor...werd
PS: More soon. Promise.
PSS: Check out Ye Olde Moblog over the next few days. I'm either getting a digital camera tomorrow or Friday, so expect a lot of stupid photos...and just as an aside...that's not what I'm excited about.
PSSS: Whoever is responsible for allowing garbage like "The Biggest Loser" to air needs to be shot and pissed on.
Friday, October 14, 2005
3:31 AM...
So I got a cell call at 3:31 AM today. Only problem was I left my cell in my pants...which were hanging in the other room.
Whoever called didn't leave a message, which totally urks me. Even if it was a wrong number I think whoever it was should have left a message saying, "hey, I f*cked up and called the wrong number. Sorry to disturb you."
But it also makes me wonder if it was something more.
Maybe it was someone that needed to talk to me.
Maybe it was someone I was waiting to call and because I didn't have enough sense to pull my phone out and charge it for the night, I missed it.
Maybe it was like that movie, the one where the chick is in trouble and the young man has to save the day...and my phone was in my pants in the other room.
No chance to be the hero today.
'slater,
Luthor...werd
Whoever called didn't leave a message, which totally urks me. Even if it was a wrong number I think whoever it was should have left a message saying, "hey, I f*cked up and called the wrong number. Sorry to disturb you."
But it also makes me wonder if it was something more.
Maybe it was someone that needed to talk to me.
Maybe it was someone I was waiting to call and because I didn't have enough sense to pull my phone out and charge it for the night, I missed it.
Maybe it was like that movie, the one where the chick is in trouble and the young man has to save the day...and my phone was in my pants in the other room.
No chance to be the hero today.
'slater,
Luthor...werd
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Hellos and Goodbyes...
I have a lot of mixed emotions today.
Today a good friend of mine is leaving for the next phase of his dream job. My buddy Scott leaves tonight for Johnstown to work for the minor league affiliate to the Tampa Bay Lightning. Scott's a trainer. He's only a few years into his career and very close to doing exactly what he's always wanted to do...work for the NHL.
Scott's a great person and I couldn't be happier for him.
It's kind of a weird thing. I don't know Scotty all that well, but I feel a kinship with him. We don't see each other all that often, but I think we both like each other a great deal. Whenever the two of us get together we laugh and tell stories and enjoy each others company but neither of us has ever really made an effort to really get to know each other that well. I kind of wonder if that's something that happens as you get older. Do you have the friends you have and that's it? Does that ability to make new good friends go away because you've got what you need? Or is that just something I've conjured to justify my lack of effort? I dunno.
Anywho, I'm going to the bar tonight to wish Scotty a fond farewell and I'm sure we'll laugh and tell stories and enjoy each others company, as we've always done.
Other Stuff:
I need to get away. Work and the people I work with are getting to me. The place I live(not home by any stretch anymore) is getting to me. This city is getting to me. I need to get away.
For the past few years, I've had the ability to get away when I needed to. I've been able to jump on a jet and fly to a place where I could escape Windsor and everything happening here and just get to be me and enjoy being myself in a different surrounding, doing different things.
That place isn't there for the foreseeable future, so what do I do now?
I go to the place I should have been from...Chicago!!!
Marc, Rich and I are going to the Windy City the second weekend in November to watch my Chicago Bears trounce the sadly San Francisco 49ers. Yes both legendary dynasties are in a bit of a rut, but with Marc(a die hard 'Niners fan), Rich and I(Bears fans threw and threw) there I'm thinking our teams are going to relive the rivalry that was so alive and strong in the mid 80's.
I love Chicago. I have a great Aunt and Uncle that live there and I've always thought of the city as where I was meant to be. I can't wait.
'slater,
Luthor...werd
Today a good friend of mine is leaving for the next phase of his dream job. My buddy Scott leaves tonight for Johnstown to work for the minor league affiliate to the Tampa Bay Lightning. Scott's a trainer. He's only a few years into his career and very close to doing exactly what he's always wanted to do...work for the NHL.
Scott's a great person and I couldn't be happier for him.
It's kind of a weird thing. I don't know Scotty all that well, but I feel a kinship with him. We don't see each other all that often, but I think we both like each other a great deal. Whenever the two of us get together we laugh and tell stories and enjoy each others company but neither of us has ever really made an effort to really get to know each other that well. I kind of wonder if that's something that happens as you get older. Do you have the friends you have and that's it? Does that ability to make new good friends go away because you've got what you need? Or is that just something I've conjured to justify my lack of effort? I dunno.
Anywho, I'm going to the bar tonight to wish Scotty a fond farewell and I'm sure we'll laugh and tell stories and enjoy each others company, as we've always done.
Other Stuff:
I need to get away. Work and the people I work with are getting to me. The place I live(not home by any stretch anymore) is getting to me. This city is getting to me. I need to get away.
For the past few years, I've had the ability to get away when I needed to. I've been able to jump on a jet and fly to a place where I could escape Windsor and everything happening here and just get to be me and enjoy being myself in a different surrounding, doing different things.
That place isn't there for the foreseeable future, so what do I do now?
I go to the place I should have been from...Chicago!!!
Marc, Rich and I are going to the Windy City the second weekend in November to watch my Chicago Bears trounce the sadly San Francisco 49ers. Yes both legendary dynasties are in a bit of a rut, but with Marc(a die hard 'Niners fan), Rich and I(Bears fans threw and threw) there I'm thinking our teams are going to relive the rivalry that was so alive and strong in the mid 80's.
I love Chicago. I have a great Aunt and Uncle that live there and I've always thought of the city as where I was meant to be. I can't wait.
'slater,
Luthor...werd
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Comic of the Week: Infinite Crisis #1
Ok so today might be the biggest day in comic book history.
2 major, universe shattering series had issues out today.
House of M #7 climaxed the series(kinda) and had all kinds of awesome stuff in it.
If it were any other week, that would be the comic of the week, hands down. But it's not any other week.
This week it's time for a Crisis...
Every few years DC throws a Crisis that reinvents their universe and the way people view it. The last major Crisis was Crisis on Infinite Earths, which took place in 1985. CoIE took all of DC's continuity and regulated it to make sense in a current context. It basically changed everything. There was a lot of complaining done at the time, but it worked and it needed to be done. The current Crisis is a direct spin off of that title, Infinite Crisis. I don't want to spoil anything but by the end of the first book, it's VERY evident how.
So Anyway...
Comic of the Week:
Infinite Crisis #1
Written by Geoff Johns; Art by Phil Jimenez & Andy Lanning; Covers by Jim Lee & Sandra Hope and George Pérez
It's finally here: the comics event so massive that it built over the first half of 2005, through COUNTDOWN, DAY OF VENGEANCE, RANN/THANAGAR WAR, VILLAINS UNITED and THE OMAC PROJECT! Prepare for the dawn of the DCU's darkest day in INFINITE CRISIS, a 7-issue miniseries written by Geoff Johns (GREEN LANTERN, JSA) with art by Phil Jimenez (OTHERWORLD, Uncanny X-Men) & Andy Lanning (OTHERWORLD) and covers by George Pérez (CRISIS ON INFINITE EARTHS) and Jim Lee (BATMAN, SUPERMAN) & Sandra hope! Surrounded by their most fearsome enemies, the world's greatest heroes are divided within and without.
DC's icons — Superman, Batman, Wonder Woman — are joined by Nightwing, Supergirl, Donna Troy, Superboy, Robin, Wonder Girl, Green Lantern, the Flash and more as they face their most dire hour. What happens next will destroy friendships and lives, dictating the direction of the universe for the next generation!
Years in the making, the greatest event to hit the DCU in over two decades is about to explode — don't miss out!
Taken from:
http://www.dccomics.com/comics/?cm=4336
To find your local comic book shop, try The Comic Shop Locator @ http://csls.diamondcomics.com/ or call 1-888-COMIC BOOK
Let me know what you think.
'slater,
Luthor...werd
2 major, universe shattering series had issues out today.
House of M #7 climaxed the series(kinda) and had all kinds of awesome stuff in it.
If it were any other week, that would be the comic of the week, hands down. But it's not any other week.
This week it's time for a Crisis...
Every few years DC throws a Crisis that reinvents their universe and the way people view it. The last major Crisis was Crisis on Infinite Earths, which took place in 1985. CoIE took all of DC's continuity and regulated it to make sense in a current context. It basically changed everything. There was a lot of complaining done at the time, but it worked and it needed to be done. The current Crisis is a direct spin off of that title, Infinite Crisis. I don't want to spoil anything but by the end of the first book, it's VERY evident how.
So Anyway...
Comic of the Week:
Infinite Crisis #1
Written by Geoff Johns; Art by Phil Jimenez & Andy Lanning; Covers by Jim Lee & Sandra Hope and George Pérez
It's finally here: the comics event so massive that it built over the first half of 2005, through COUNTDOWN, DAY OF VENGEANCE, RANN/THANAGAR WAR, VILLAINS UNITED and THE OMAC PROJECT! Prepare for the dawn of the DCU's darkest day in INFINITE CRISIS, a 7-issue miniseries written by Geoff Johns (GREEN LANTERN, JSA) with art by Phil Jimenez (OTHERWORLD, Uncanny X-Men) & Andy Lanning (OTHERWORLD) and covers by George Pérez (CRISIS ON INFINITE EARTHS) and Jim Lee (BATMAN, SUPERMAN) & Sandra hope! Surrounded by their most fearsome enemies, the world's greatest heroes are divided within and without.
DC's icons — Superman, Batman, Wonder Woman — are joined by Nightwing, Supergirl, Donna Troy, Superboy, Robin, Wonder Girl, Green Lantern, the Flash and more as they face their most dire hour. What happens next will destroy friendships and lives, dictating the direction of the universe for the next generation!
Years in the making, the greatest event to hit the DCU in over two decades is about to explode — don't miss out!
Taken from:
http://www.dccomics.com/comics/?cm=4336
To find your local comic book shop, try The Comic Shop Locator @ http://csls.diamondcomics.com/ or call 1-888-COMIC BOOK
Let me know what you think.
'slater,
Luthor...werd
Saturday, October 08, 2005
Comic Of The Week
I had a lot of fun doing my 10 favorite albums post.
Back in the day I used to do a weekly pick of whatever I thought was cool for that week. I once put my recipe for soup up, mainly because I'm lame like that. Anywho, I thought it might be fun to post an image of my favorite comic of the week, since I'm a big comic book pimp. If I can get 1 person(well, I've already done that so maybe 2 people) to start reading comics then I'll be happy. I love me some comics. I litterally wear my love for comics on my sleeve, and I'd just love for more people to get interested in the hobby.
So here's what I'm going to do. After my near weekly trip to my comic book store(shout out to Border City Comics in Windsor, Ontario; My comic book store for more then 10 years) I'll pick my favorite book and post an image of it on my moblog and give a little info about the book, from where ever I can find it(since I suck at writing synopsis').
So this week: Powers #13 Vol2.
Powers are dropping out of the sky, leaving bloody bodies in their wake. When one of the victims is revealed to be the cosmic guardian of our galaxy, Homicide Detectives Christian Walker and Deena Pilgrim find themselves knee deep in cosmic doo. And if things weren’t bad enough, Internal Affairs would like to have a word with Detective Pilgrim.
All that and it's a perfect jumping on point for new readers!
From the writer of some of your favorite marvel comics, (New Avengers, House of M, Ultimate Spider-Man, Daredevil, Secret War) comes a brand new chapter from the award winning book!
Taken from:
http://www.marvel.com/catalog/listing.htm?category=ICON
To find your local comic book shop, try The Comic Shop Locator @ http://csls.diamondcomics.com/ or call 1-888-COMIC BOOK
'slater,
Luthor...werd
PS: I feel a lot better. Got to say some things I've held in for a while and I feel really good about it. Plus, sleep is a wonderful thing.
Back in the day I used to do a weekly pick of whatever I thought was cool for that week. I once put my recipe for soup up, mainly because I'm lame like that. Anywho, I thought it might be fun to post an image of my favorite comic of the week, since I'm a big comic book pimp. If I can get 1 person(well, I've already done that so maybe 2 people) to start reading comics then I'll be happy. I love me some comics. I litterally wear my love for comics on my sleeve, and I'd just love for more people to get interested in the hobby.
So here's what I'm going to do. After my near weekly trip to my comic book store(shout out to Border City Comics in Windsor, Ontario; My comic book store for more then 10 years) I'll pick my favorite book and post an image of it on my moblog and give a little info about the book, from where ever I can find it(since I suck at writing synopsis').
So this week: Powers #13 Vol2.
Powers are dropping out of the sky, leaving bloody bodies in their wake. When one of the victims is revealed to be the cosmic guardian of our galaxy, Homicide Detectives Christian Walker and Deena Pilgrim find themselves knee deep in cosmic doo. And if things weren’t bad enough, Internal Affairs would like to have a word with Detective Pilgrim.
All that and it's a perfect jumping on point for new readers!
From the writer of some of your favorite marvel comics, (New Avengers, House of M, Ultimate Spider-Man, Daredevil, Secret War) comes a brand new chapter from the award winning book!
Taken from:
http://www.marvel.com/catalog/listing.htm?category=ICON
To find your local comic book shop, try The Comic Shop Locator @ http://csls.diamondcomics.com/ or call 1-888-COMIC BOOK
'slater,
Luthor...werd
PS: I feel a lot better. Got to say some things I've held in for a while and I feel really good about it. Plus, sleep is a wonderful thing.
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
My Top 10 Albums
So today I don't feel like writing about how depressed I am and thought I would tell you about my favorite albums. I've always thought that the kind of music a person likes says a lot about them. Music has a lot of meaning in my life. There are times where I just stop listening to music, but my love for it always comes back and it usually helps me quite a bit. So anyway, here they are.
Not in any particular order:
I almost feel bad because I didn't even put a lot of my favorite bands on the list. Music has brought a lot to my life and these change time to time, so I might do another list somewhere down the line with completely different albums.
Anywho, check this stuff out. It's great and let me know what you think.
'slater,
Luthor...werd
Not in any particular order:
Salt - Ausculate
Eels - Daisies of the Galaxy
Sloan - Twice Removed
Queens of the Stone Age - Songs for the Deaf
Foo Fighters - The Colour and the Shape
Blur - 13
Primus - Antipop
Public Enemy - Apocalypse 91: The Enemy Strikes Black
Tool - Aenima
The Who - Meaty, Beaty, Big and Bouncy
Eels - Daisies of the Galaxy
Sloan - Twice Removed
Queens of the Stone Age - Songs for the Deaf
Foo Fighters - The Colour and the Shape
Blur - 13
Primus - Antipop
Public Enemy - Apocalypse 91: The Enemy Strikes Black
Tool - Aenima
The Who - Meaty, Beaty, Big and Bouncy
I almost feel bad because I didn't even put a lot of my favorite bands on the list. Music has brought a lot to my life and these change time to time, so I might do another list somewhere down the line with completely different albums.
Anywho, check this stuff out. It's great and let me know what you think.
'slater,
Luthor...werd
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
Become Whatever...
become whatever
some say it ain't much to do at all
some say i'd rather wait than react at all
your ache will return
and your soul will resign
i know that your resistance will be strong
and if you wanna
become whatever you want
want whatever you want to
do whatever you like to do
and you can become whatever you want
want whatever you like to do
all the way through
believe your decisions won't be wrong
reply to those who care
cause it'll make you strong
you will reform yourself again
your ache wasn't there just to hurt
no you don't have to be afraid now
once you receive
no you don't have to be disguised now
you didn't do wrong
and if you wanna go there
you have to let it out again
now maybe you should go there
you have to let it out all the way through
and if you wanna go there
you have to let it out again
now if you wanna go there
now all the way through
now all the way through
Become Whatever by Grand Tone Music
some say it ain't much to do at all
some say i'd rather wait than react at all
your ache will return
and your soul will resign
i know that your resistance will be strong
and if you wanna
become whatever you want
want whatever you want to
do whatever you like to do
and you can become whatever you want
want whatever you like to do
all the way through
believe your decisions won't be wrong
reply to those who care
cause it'll make you strong
you will reform yourself again
your ache wasn't there just to hurt
no you don't have to be afraid now
once you receive
no you don't have to be disguised now
you didn't do wrong
and if you wanna go there
you have to let it out again
now maybe you should go there
you have to let it out all the way through
and if you wanna go there
you have to let it out again
now if you wanna go there
now all the way through
now all the way through
Become Whatever by Grand Tone Music
Still not feeling great about a lot of things. Only slept for about 2 hours last night. It's a horrible feeling when you try to sleep and starting thinking in circles. This song made me feel a little better.
If anyone remembers the band Salt from the mid 90's post grunge era, Grand Tone Music has the same lead singer. Salt's Ausculate album is one of my all time favorites. After a few years of trying to find more info about them, I stumbled across the lead singer's name(Nina Ramsby) on Amazon. After a little more searching I found THIS amazing website(along with the corresponding Yahoo newsgroup). Since then, her music is pretty much all I've been listening to(the fact that I don't have the speakers on my computer set up and that most of my Cd's are in boxes doesn't help). Grand Tone Music's Album "Go To Hell" is almost exactly how I feel at the moment. It's sad and slow, but uplifting at the same time. Kind of weird to be depressed and optimistic at the same time. I dunno. That's me.
'slater,
Luthor...werd
If anyone remembers the band Salt from the mid 90's post grunge era, Grand Tone Music has the same lead singer. Salt's Ausculate album is one of my all time favorites. After a few years of trying to find more info about them, I stumbled across the lead singer's name(Nina Ramsby) on Amazon. After a little more searching I found THIS amazing website(along with the corresponding Yahoo newsgroup). Since then, her music is pretty much all I've been listening to(the fact that I don't have the speakers on my computer set up and that most of my Cd's are in boxes doesn't help). Grand Tone Music's Album "Go To Hell" is almost exactly how I feel at the moment. It's sad and slow, but uplifting at the same time. Kind of weird to be depressed and optimistic at the same time. I dunno. That's me.
'slater,
Luthor...werd
Monday, October 03, 2005
Getting Kicked When I'm Down...
So I need to get some stuff off my chest and I figure what better forum then my blog for it. If you've read lately or even for about the last 6 or 8 months, you know that I've been down. I've been depressed and miserable in every way since May.
I've had to deal with the slow dissolve of a long time "relationship", my mother being in the hospital for depression, a job that I don't like and that's getting worse, the fact that I'm almost 30 and not doing anything productive with my life and, within the last month, the discovery that my aunt and cousin have moved into my house.
Things are just bad and I'm not happy and I don't know what to do about it.
Last year my family doctor diagnosed me as having the same kind of depression issues my mother has. He prescribed me anti-depressants and sleeping pills. I didn't have the prescription filled. I don't know now if that was a good idea or not, but it was a decision I made and I stand by it. But a year has gone by and I don't feel any better. I still feel down, I'm still having sleeping issues and I don't have a lot of confidence in my will to want better things and go out and do it. My confidence is shot and I don't know how to make myself feel better. So I'm thinking it might be time to start with those pills. It's scary, but I think I have to do it.
I don't know though. It would mean a big change in my life. No more drinking just for starters. I just don't know what to do.
I have a lot to think about.
To any of my friends that read this(not that there's a lot), I'm sorry if I have hurt any feelings or said anything or done anything that has hurt you. You've been there for me despite not knowing everything that has gone on and I appreciate it more then you will know.
'slater,
Luthor...werd
I've had to deal with the slow dissolve of a long time "relationship", my mother being in the hospital for depression, a job that I don't like and that's getting worse, the fact that I'm almost 30 and not doing anything productive with my life and, within the last month, the discovery that my aunt and cousin have moved into my house.
Things are just bad and I'm not happy and I don't know what to do about it.
Last year my family doctor diagnosed me as having the same kind of depression issues my mother has. He prescribed me anti-depressants and sleeping pills. I didn't have the prescription filled. I don't know now if that was a good idea or not, but it was a decision I made and I stand by it. But a year has gone by and I don't feel any better. I still feel down, I'm still having sleeping issues and I don't have a lot of confidence in my will to want better things and go out and do it. My confidence is shot and I don't know how to make myself feel better. So I'm thinking it might be time to start with those pills. It's scary, but I think I have to do it.
I don't know though. It would mean a big change in my life. No more drinking just for starters. I just don't know what to do.
I have a lot to think about.
To any of my friends that read this(not that there's a lot), I'm sorry if I have hurt any feelings or said anything or done anything that has hurt you. You've been there for me despite not knowing everything that has gone on and I appreciate it more then you will know.
'slater,
Luthor...werd
Sunday, October 02, 2005
"Agony"
Am I gonna be all right?
No I'm not gonna be all right
Nothing is all right now
Am I gonna see the sun come up?
Or am I going down?
'cause every day I'm here
All I feel is sheer
Agony
Friends tellin' me that maybe I need
Some psychiatric help
Yeah they're always so quick to tell you
Just how to get on with it
But I look into the mirror
And all I see is age, fear
And agony
If I could just remember what it was like
When I was younger
Before all the joy and happiness
Was replaced with hunger
Now all I've got to show for the seeds that didn't grow
Is agony
Agony by Eels
Long week. Need rest. Down.
'slater,
Luthor...slater
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